sometimes,people would tend to whine and complain and pick on everything that's going on around their lives.
whenever you're tied down with somethings, you'll be whinning and ranting it all out.
but when you've time to count ants and stare into space you'll be feeling that you've nothing to do at all which would lead you to boredom then.
everyone would have to have ups and downs in their lives.
it all depends on your will to overcome every obstacle and learn from everything all over again.
but for myself when i've got extra time for myself it'll lead me to some unecessary thoughts.
some really ridiculous ones and i find it rather annoying.
i wonder why would i think of all these in the first place.
reminiscing about it would make me label it as nonsensical or plain crap.
but on the other hand,
sometimes these kinda quiet moments,
i'm able to figure certain things out.
like for those things that went wrong,
how am i supposed to make it right,
or what can i do better the next time round.
it all boils down to what comes around my mind.
even though i'm always stuck at a crossed road,
i'll gradually allow things to get by me.
time plays a part for me and i think it helped pretty much i've to say.
people do change overtime but there'll be a cause for it.
and whenever it comes to friendship,gfs will be there for each other.
and i've to say i treasured everything that we had been together for.
some friendships come and go.
well,i'll meet many people for sure but not many stays.
thats why i'm statisfied to have gfs with my all along.
it doenst matter much as to how many friends you've got actually.
because to me,nothing beats friends that stays.
losing a friend would mean something for sure.
but since it can't be kept i shouldn't be bothering much since it's over.
life's been quite dull and mundane.
because the holidays are coming to and end and what's more i'm tied down very much with work.
working with numbers and handling them is such a chore totally.
since i doesn't have a choice, i need to do a good job.
which is not what i'm seeing now.
because i've been making mistakes and yet i still dont know why i made them.
it sucks totally.
and it's definitely not what i wanted.
whatever it is and whatever that i had in mind.
for now,
i can only sit in front of my lappy and pout.
(: