i had a bad day today.
really bad one.
everything went wrong.
woke up late.
packed my things late.
missed 2 bus.
missed another bus cos i thought it'll be full so i queued for another bus.
went to class.
my day was a lill better then.
cos i had some laughters and talking here and there.
borrowed hard disk which ended up corrupted.
and it had to be reformat.
which wasn't mine.
and eveything inside was gone.
i'm sorry. :((
that person got pissed with my sms i guess.
so whatever.
i can't be bothered somehow.
cos what do you expect me to do?
i donno.
dont wanna care.
and dont wanna know either.
gave me fcuked up face when i arrived.
didn't see my name on the paper.
so i left.
bus took god-damnit-long to arrive.
hom-ed after that.
so far everything's fine.
there's NTL tml.
i hope i'll be able to wake up in time.
if not; i'll miss the game.
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
*&^%$#@!~
very vexed now.
i donno why things turn out to be like that.
was it my fault?
maybe it was alll my fault.
i'm to blame for everything.
i should take up the blame and be responsible for every single thing.
but what i typed wasn't meant to be that serious.
somehow it wasn't a joke to you i guess.
maybe its time for me to stop everything,
get out of this place,
go somewhere else and never come back.
sometimes i think over what others said about how you go about doing things.
and it didn't seem so true until today.
i realised that what i heard;
wasn't false.
you're such a person at times.
when you need people;
you'll beg like crazy and pled till you get their help.
when you dont need them;
you'll just kick them aside.
i thought you're one which is understanding.
but you definietely proven me otherwise today.
you may have your level of tolerance or amount of anger that needed to be vent.
but hello;
not on me.
my level of tolerance aint that high as you think too.
though i may appear to you that i'm easy-going with people around me and all.
that doesn't mean that i'll tolerate your nonsense.
this is the second time already.
i choose not to leave is because i'm plain lazy.
but most of all.
it's because this place holds too much memories for me.
and sometimes i need these memories to keep me going.
i dont know what came over you.
i dont plan to do anything yet.
cos i donno what move to make.
and i wont know whats the right thing to do.
i would just let everything fall back into place nicely if its possible.
and i would remain to be silent to keep things going as it is.
because all in all.
memories are forever.
i'm not a happy person today.
and things wont be the same anymore.
emo emo and emo.
i need you.
cos i really wished you'll stay by my side.
i need a hug.
and i cried.
my tears came flowing down.
cos there's just too much on my mind. :(
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