i'm gonna be really down this week.
what a week to start la!
i've been feeling really sonotgood at all.
sad.
depressed.
unhappy.
moody.
super EMO!
i donno why.
but i've got this really undescribable feeling.
isit really what i think?
i'm totally lost and confused.
and i hate it this way.
total break down inside me.
its like the very first time?
deb was shocked to see me that morning.
i'm sorry.
i just couldn't control myself.
cause most of the time i'm not like that.
i look really pathetic on monday.
i chose to not speak to anyone that much.
i just really wanna keep to myself.
but thought that i shouldn't.
too selfish of me.
so i did some talking unwillingly.
though you see me smiling.
i just wanted to be happy on the surface at least.
after all that happened.
that particular dream,
the only LONG conversation.
the ONLY phone call from YOU.
will it really make a difference if you're by my side?
sleepless nights KILLS me.
cause i'll be thinking and thinking and thinking MORE.
those dramas made me make a great match between my life and the drama.
its so true to me.
though i know its almost impossible;
i hope to try at least;
but i'm lost for words when i see you.
i'm trying, trying really hard.
but as the days past,
i cannot withstand this any much longer;
though i really hope i can.
but i know i won't be able to.
and i've got no idea whats going on in your life.
cause it seems to be that you're ignoring me.
maybe you've found someone better.
i seriously dont understand you.
thats because to choose to keep to yourself always.
whenever i see you;
i wanna tell you badly.
just that i dont have the courage.
i hate this feeeling totally.
i've this stupid feeling that i'm gonna lose you.
but i so dont want it to happen.
even though i've got company of friends,
it doesn't really seem to help that much.
you're still stuck in my mind.
i cannt forget you at all.
yes i know i cannot carry on like this;
but i seriously can't help it.
and i'm gonna end this post with a )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
i miss you badly.
okay, so deb's here to help weiyi update.
cos something wrong's with her blogger. weirrrd!
anyway,
CHEER UP WEIYI! :D
im always here to hear your troubles. (:
no more emo-ing alright! haha.