i didn't feel frustrated nor depressed when you told me not to go.
trying soooo hard to talk some logic to me.
which eventually i managed not to listen to.
and stayed where i was the whole day long.
in this house facing walls.
thats what you did to me.
and you're there gloating away.
i'm used to it all along.
and am rejecting you much more.
partly so much bcos you're always bias.
prolly its just what i tink huh.
i'll prove it to you someday.
and you're indirectly scolding and critising me.
in such a great manner that you wanted me to hear it.
which i heard every single word loud and clear.
but i knocked them outta my head hard afta that.
but it rings when you screamed once more.
and all this made me not to communicate to anyone.
and helped me soo much.
that i finally got down to my studies.
as i find in no point to speaking to anyone at all.
and i've yet to regret that.
you made me this way.
i dont blame you for that.
but you shld know clearly inside you;
that i've been doing things for you.
and that you claimed i'm a good for nothing.
for the fact that all i bothered at the end of the day,
was all abt the teevee.
which definitely isn't.
to you it is.
ohhwells,
i guess you've just have got this mindset inside you.
which no matter what wouldn't be changed.
and i'll accept it that way.
whenever you barked at me.
you won't even really pay much attention to what i've said.
which results in my silence whenever i'm maligned.
and you assuming that you're soooo right.
and also,
each time, it ends with a wrap up of something.
which forced me to break the silence in front of you.
howeverso,
i thank you so for you bringing me into this world.
you've certainly make my life to an extreme at times.
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